#30 Days Trying to Find Joy Challenge – Day 4

Sunday, March 8, 2020 9:16pm – LA Marathon & a great 11yr old.

Oh, today was challenging to say the least!  I woke up knowing I wouldn’t be running the LA Marathon, something that I had registered for and had hoped to add to my other three completed marathons. But, it just wasn’t meant to be for so many reasons. And I’m not sure I’ll try again next year. Maybe 3 marathons is enough.  And yet, I can’t lie, a part of me knows in my heart, I’d love to finish one more.  Hmmmm…

Today was also a wonderful day because I got a message from my sweet God-Daughter Julianna, wishing me a lovely International Woman’s day. She’s 11 years old now and we spent the weekend together a couple of weeks ago – we went to the movies, had dinner, talked all things Marvel, the 80’s (for some reason she’s really hooked on the 80’s), did a  work-out with Centr6, went for a 3 mile beach walk and just shared the best time together. Hanging out with her is just pure joy. Clearly, I don’t have kids – and honestly, I never wanted them. But I do love them and I get along with most kids pretty easily.  I used to think that my favorite ages were 3-5ish, but you know, 11 is pretty cool too. Although I think that may have more to do with the fabulous Julianna. She’s always been a great kid and I’m so lucky she has parents who have always wanted me to be a big part of her life.  In so many ways, I have the best of all worlds. 

I’ve gotten super organized today because this week will prove to be a little crazy. I have 4 projects to get through this week and I hope to get it all done. I actually have no choice BUT to get it done so – maybe I’m feeling a little stressed.  Did I mention that none of these projects guarantee any real money?  It’s one of those things you do when running your own business in hopes of generating more money. Gotta invest in your company. Seriously, a lottery win of a few hundred thousand dollars is truly all I need to get a jump start.  Is that really so much to ask for? Hahaha!  Apparently. Oh well. I’m grateful. My life is pretty good and I know that every day. Could it be better? Sure. But I also know it could be so much worse.  So, I revel in the good. 

I wonder if other people have mentally budgeted out how much money they would need to just clean the slate and start over?  $300K would change the entire game for me.  I know, it sounds like a lot of money, but people throw that money around like nothing in this town.  I pass by many cars on my run in my own neighborhood that could change my life.  Ha!  There’s this one house that has a Tesla, Ferrari and a Bentley parked right in the driveway.  I pass by it every day – all the cars are black, with black tinted window. The house is of course lovely – and every time I pass by I think how one of those cars alone could pay my rent for at least 3 years!  Imagine that? Eeeh, I send them a blessing every time I go on by.  Next time, maybe I’ll take a pic with my phone – I think about that every time I go by as well. It is kind of a sight actually.  All three cars are perfectly parked – black against a huge white house, like a canvas…  There’s something artistic about it as well. I’m sure completely intentional.

That’s it. Happy sweet week to everyone!  I hope we all have a GREAT and surprising week that brings us all lots of happiness and hell, yeah, I’mma wish we all win the lottery in some way as well.  Ha! 

Carmen