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I went to Church this morning and when I say, “Church” – we mean Beach. And I sat in my… I wanted to sit in my favorite pew, which is a bench but there was somebody sitting there. So I tried to enjoy it from a different space, but that didn’t work. And then, after a few minutes there, I walked on over and stood by the…closer to the railing. And I could hear the sermon from the ocean. It was beautiful.
I’m having a tough day. The past few days, questioning way too much. Over-thinking. Of course. That’s my whole jam, I guess. And…
My goal isn’t to be…I know a lot of people think the goal is to be…
[I should be filming it this way, but…I don’t know…I’m already doing it this way. So…it’s just easier to hold. I don’t have it on the mound right now so…]
The goal isn’t to be ecstatically happy every day. That’s not it.
But the goal is to progress. To move forward. And…
I feel like I moved forward and I just stepped back four miles. And I’m uneasy about it. And I’m just feeling… I’m not sad or happy — I’m just in that space…
I keep thinking of Chadwick Boseman. And I love that he said, “Take your time, but do not waste your time.”
I don’t think I’m wasting time. But I do need to figure this out.
I am going to church for the first time in months tomorrow. Everyone’s spirits needs lifting.
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Yes, our spirit’s need uplifting for sure my brother. I’ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. 🙏🏽🤗
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Somebody much wiser than me once said “This too will pass.” I don’t know how many steps the person took before rounding the corner and reaching enlightenment but we can all appreciate it while praying at the beach!
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So very true! I think that same person also said. “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.” It’s a good reminder. Thank you! ❤🤗
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