As I’m writing this, the Chicago Marathon has just started.
Are there things in your life that when you look back on you just can’t fathom you once accomplished, but can’t imagine ever doing ever again?
I’ve run three marathons. Several 10 and 5K’s – I really thought I wanted to run one more marathon, and it be Boston. But now, as I sit here watching the beginning of the Chicago race, I’m stunned I ever ran at all. And the idea that I’d ever run such a long distance… makes my face cringe and my heart tighten up.
I was never a natural runner. I started running in college and because I “fell in love” with a guy who ran every day. And since I’d stopped dancing long ago, I needed something easy and steady as a workout. And so, I tried it.
Oh, let me be clear, I’ve always hated running. When you come from a place where you dance every day, running is just not a thing. But the amazing thing about running is that once you start, about 20 minutes in, you do forget that you’re running, and you lose yourself in the rhythm of it all. In that way, it’s very much like dancing, so it stuck for me.
But now, after having surgery on my hip and femur – my whole way of walking and just being has changed. I feel so good and don’t feel any pain at all. I walk differently, proudly in a way, if that makes any sense. I was living with pain and I just had no idea – compensating for that pain was an automatic way of life and now it’s not there anymore. And when I was first talking with my brilliant surgeon about the whole process I kept begging him to tell me if I’d be able to keep running – and he was always hesitant, opting for me to do things like cycling, walking and swimming instead, which just angered me. Finally, he relented once and said, “…maybe 3-5 miles twice a week, but no more than that.” I felt like I’d won something.
It’s been a year of since that surgery and now that I’m feeling 100%, I have no intentions of running again. So, weird, right? I use a spin bike, I walk every day and even dance a bit in my living room – I opt for strength training and just mixing things up daily because I like that my legs feel so good and I walk without any pain at all. I want to keep it that way forever.
So, as far as things I’ve accomplished in the past that I can’t fathom doing ever again – I doubt I’ll run a marathon or participate in a 5-10k except as a spectator cheering others on from this day forward. I love that I feel so easy and okay about that. It just makes sense for me
Now, I have gone skydiving before and I will be considering it again real soon! Wanna come? 🙂