My Letter to Santa

Dear  Santa,

I’m getting my letter in EARLY!  Truth is, I’ve been a REAL good girl this year.  I mean SPECTACULAR!

Just in case you get a little confused, I thought I’d remind you of how GOOD I’ve been!

For starters, I’ve been patient.  Real patient.  More patient than I’ve ever been in my entire life!  With people, with circumstances, with anything and everything’s that’s been thrown my way.  And can we be a little honest here? A LOT’s been thrown my way this year BIG TIME!  But that’s okay. I can handle it.

Now, I’ve also been very giving.  Let’s be fair, I’ve always “given”.  But this year, I think I’ve done much more than any other year.  Ironically, I’ve had less to give financially, but I’ve given more of my heart, my time and my love. It didn’t matter that it’s been tough all year, I still work on the premise of always trying to give more than I receive (Selfish really.  I like how it feels to give – a secret I learned from you long ago!).   All and all I think I’ve done pretty well on the “giving” end regardless!

Let’s see, what else?  Oh, I’ve also been understanding.  I mean, VERY understanding!  I’ve done my best to understand why people treat people the way they do. Why some are so cheap or angry or just plain stupid!  (Oops, sorry, I shouldn’t be calling people stupid).  But I’ve tried.  I’ve really tried to understand why people lie so very much to each other but more astonishingly to themselves.  And I have to admit,  I  really don’t get it!  Nonetheless, when I realized it was too painful to keep trying to understand, I stepped away.  Letting people do what they need to do.  And honestly, I can’t say I know or understand anything better, but I do admit to feeling oh so much better!   And when you feel better, you can only do better, right?

See, I’ve been good!  For the most part anyways, so here’s my list (in no particular order):

1)  I would like the economy to improve – immediately please (uhm, and just to be specific, I mean all over the world).

2)  I would also like the US education system to improve ten-fold (good luck Michelle Rhee. www.studentsfirst.org)

3)  I would like Liberals and Conservatives to stop being so damn extreme and get back to being more uhm…SANE and yeah, calm down a bit! Goodness gracious (sorry for cursing there Santa)!

4)  I would like people to stop being so self-absorbed and think about others on a more regular basis.  For example, they could start with just reaching out to their next door neighbor or be more worldly and learn about women and children suffering  in the Congo.  It’d be a much better world if we just THOUGHT bigger, CARED more and REACHED out to others on a regular basis (Yes, I know, I’m asking for Utopia. But it’s my list Santa! And this is what I want!).

5)  I would like all the divisiveness to stop.  We’ve gone from North and South to Red States, Blue States, to Main Street and Wall Street.  Can I be so corny and cliché as to ask:  Can’t we all just get along?

6)  I’d like us to stop talking about Gay folk so much.  And what I mean is, Santa, can we finally just get to a place where we realize what people do in their own damn bedroom is none of my muther-effin’ business?  Enough, already.  I am so over people being homophobic, people having to ‘come out’…OYVEY!  To me, it’s like racist morons, I can’t even give them the time of day they’re so ridiculous!  I don’t care if you’re Gay!  And no one else should either!  (sorry Santa, I cursed again, uhem).

7)  I’d also like Warren Buffett and the rest of the billionaires to please stop talking about giving away their fortunes.  God love ’em, but goodness sake, for some reason it just infuriates me more!  Trickle Trickle my way Mr. Buffett!  I bet I could do GREAT things with a stimulus package of my own!  I’d be happy to take $200K of your money and show you what I could do with it!  I’m just saying… I’m glad you’re all giving your money away, but unless you’re doing it for something tangible in my own community, and doing it right now, can you please give it a rest?  The last thing poor folk want to hear is that you got so much money that you’re giving it away but not to US!  (Love you though Mr. Buffett! I really do!).

8)  That “Christmas” be embraced completely!   As well as every other religious celebration! It’s not political correctness, it’s just common sense.   This time of year is so beautiful!  It’s even more beautiful because it lights up with so many different traditions!   And honestly, it’s not that hard to light a menorah or say Happy Kwanza or Happy Holidays at all.  Seriously, do we just FIND things to complain about?  It’s my second favorite time of year, let’s let everyone enjoy it (yeah, my birthday still is numero uno, lets not confuse what’s most important he-he!)!

Personally, I’d like what I always ask for:

1)      Continued GREAT health (grateful for my health so far!).

2)      Steady work doing what I love (so grateful that I get to pursue what I love at all!).

3)      Continued great joy and happiness for the people in my life…and for myself! (I’m so friggin’ lucky!).

Lastly,  If I had to ask for “gadgety material-esque” things that I truly don’t need…   Well,  I’d like a new cell phone.  The new little palm pre 2, which honestly I don’t even know if I’d like but  I’d sure love to buy it right now unlocked and try it out!  A pair of Jimmy Choo’s never hurt and I am so due!  Tickets to West Side Story, a baseball or basketball game and…well, let’s just say I wouldn’t be angry if any of all of those magically appeared somehow!!!.  (Oh, but see how easy it is to get all materialistic?).

Eeeh, I’ll  trade in all the gadgety material-esque things for the rest of my life if you give me everything else on my list!  Deal?

By the way, thank you for last years gifts…all of them!

Tu Carmencita.

Where Everyone Knows Your Name…

Went to my favorite local hangout last night — and for what it’s worth, it’s pretty much a 5 star restaurant frequented by many “A-list” and “local” celebrities.

I’ve been “hanging” there for over  10 years but it’d been a while since I’d stopped by and I have to say, I really missed being there.  It has a bar of course, but it’s all class.  Very elegant place to have dinner and quite expensive for most folk (uhmmm, very expensive for me too!).

But I used to go there early in the evening to watch the game and do my writing.  The owner is a HUGE Laker fan, and I’m…well, a Celtic fan and that’s kinda how we “met” for real!  But I could just sit at the bar for hours – watching out the window as my fellow neighbors passed on by in their cars or walking – a perfect little view for daydreaming, boy-shopping or just chillin’.

My secret little getaway.

But whenever there’s a game (basketball or baseball) we’d watch on this little tiny TV they just happen to have stuck inside a little portion of the wall.  The volume’s never up and, well, it’s just not that kind of place.  But the “regulars” come weekly, share a glass of Vueve or the latest expensive wine and watch quietly at the bar before heading off to their dinner…

Last night was perfect.  I loved walking in.  Without even trying you seem to make an entrance, that’s how they make you feel anyways!  The host came over and kissed me on both cheeks, hugged me and welcomed me back.  He motioned to the waiters and bartenders that I was “here” and then he asked me how I was doing.  Sincerely concerned that I’d hadn’t been around for a while.  I told him he looked fabulous – and he did!  He’d been working out or something – then the owner came over, also kissed me hello and got me seated at the bar immediately.  Coming over frequently to make sure we had everything we needed. The bartender automatically turned the channel on the TV. The Celtics were playing afterall. . .   very cool.

I grabbed my glass of champagne, and in walked a celebrity, also a regular, and I won’t mention his name since, well, there’s no real need to.  But there was the owner, hugging  and welcoming him back too.  The host shook his hand and they talked about his latest “TV-ism” for a moment.  And I thought to myself “…how cool is that?”  The “celebrity” looked on over and gave  a quick nod and silent “hello” my way – knowing I to, had come back “home” after being away for so long.  He looked up at the screen and laughed – he remembered my Celtic/Laker rival with the owner …again, very cool.

Eeeh, it sounds like just good customer service for a restaurant to do what it needs to do to get people to come back – and I’m not clueless to that.  The difference is this feels authentic and always has.  They’d be a fabulous restaurant with or without the brilliant “family-esque” customer service because it truly is one of the  crème de la crème of restaurants food-wise.  But there’s just something about walking into a place where everyone knows your name and makes you feel right at home.

Yeah, I really do love this town.

Head Over Heels in Love!

 

 

I fell in love a few weeks ago.

It happened just like everyone said it would, when I wasn’t looking for it, when I wasn’t paying attention.

I don’t believe in love at first site, and one could argue that this was a long time coming, but all I can say is that I feel good.  I might even be a bit obsessed.  I’m not sure that’s a good thing, but I’m just going with the flow for now.

I knew the minute I sat down. The minute I took it all in.  There was no other place I wanted to be, but right there in that moment.  I felt right at home – a sense of calm mixed with excitement.  It blindsided me.  “Head over heels” just doesn’t do it justice.  But this is love. Real love, I just know it is.

A few weeks ago, I fell in love with baseball.

Aaaah, I love basketball, I’ve always been a fan. Football, I can tolerate but it was never really my thing.  And baseball?   I just don’t know…

I spent more time at Fenway Park growing up in Boston than I care to admit, but I never went there to watch the game.  It was more of a place to hang out back then.  I was far more interested in Landsdown Street and getting into the bars & clubs that lined that part of town than anything else. I was just a kid and shouldn’t have been hanging at the park let alone getting into the clubs, but that’s a whole other story for another time.

What I don’t understand is how I never got hooked on the game of baseball after all those years….but I guess none of that matters at this point, I’m here now!

My first game after all this time was just the other day:  the Dodgers played the Cincinnati Reds.  The Dodgers won and from what I understand it was a pretty exciting game – I was so green and didn’t get much of it at all so I remember very little.  And yet, there was something about the park, the fans, the perfect aura of it all that just overwhelmed me.  It touched a part of me I didn’t know existed and I find myself yearning to be back in the park again watching the game under the perfectly lit sweet sky.

There are some “isms” I’ve come to realize in these past few weeks of research that are kinda cool if not a little weird, about me. To my surprise, I own both a Red Sox hat and a Dodger hat (A very cool vintage Brooklyn Dodger hat) and my 3rd favorite movie of all time has always been Field of Dreams.  I used to always say “it’s not just a movie about baseball…” but now that I understand so much more about the game I appreciate one of my favorite movies even more  (just watched it again the other day).  So maybe baseball’s always been part of me and I just never really noticed?  Maybe that’s the thing about baseball:  it gets under your skin without you even realizing it.  Maybe it’s an innate part of being an American.  Maybe it’s just in our blood?  I don’t know.  I’m finding it hard to explain my new found love.

 

 

I do have a few regrets though, questions really.  You know, I’ve always been and will always be a girl from Boston. But I don’t know everything about the Red Sox just yet, so do I have to commit so quickly?  And because I live in Los Angeles and went to a Dodger game I “sided” with Dodger fans and decided I’d root for the Dodgers, but, I’ve been “seeing” other games and, well, I’m just saying, I’m a little interested, that’s all.   I recently watched a Tivo’d game between San Francisco and Philly and I think I REALLY fell in love (the Giants won)!  I’m so confused!

So, here’s what I’m thinking – I’m open to any suggestions, but like any relationship, maybe I need to take it a little slow?  Maybe I need to ease my way into this before I make any long term commitments?   I’m just learning who I am in this relationship and maybe it wouldn’t be so bad to back up just a bit?  You know, see how we mesh?  See if it’s the real thing?  And hey, shouldn’t I keep myself open to the many other possibilities?  I am a young girl after-all and there seems to be quite a few teams out there I may want to consider – Plus, I have to think about the long term.  What are they offering me?  I’m not sure I’m ready for a commitment just yet.  I’m thinking I should at least go out on a date with each one before I commit to the first team that knocks on my door, right?

Hmmm…..

Well, the only thing I know for sure is that I’m not a Yankee fan or a Mets fan.  Sorry, but a girl’s gotta have standards and there are just some boys I will not date!

Woohoo!

Dodgers are playing – gotta go!

(repost from 2009)

Copyright 2010 Carmen Lezeth Suarez