My Murder Scene

black-coffee-2847957_1280This morning I woke up and in my groggy state I headed to the kitchen and clicked on the coffee maker.  Standard procedure.

As I waited, half-asleep, I noticed on the wall across from me a tiny figure slithering it’s way across the wall.  My eyes widened and somehow now fully awake, I walked on over, grabbing a napkin from the counter and snatched the tiny insect from the wall, killing it instantly.

I could hear the coffee peculating — it was almost done.  I grabbed under the kitchen sink counter for the “409” <– a spray “bleaching” cleanser of sorts (I have no idea why they call it “409” by the way, something I should look into at some point), and with yet another napkin, I sprayed the disinfectant  and wiped clean the murder scene.  It’ll be like it never happened.

The coffee was done.  I discarded the evidence, washed my hands and poured my coffee.  Cream, no sugar. My morning back to it’s normal routine and I started reading the paper.

At some point into the article I was reading,  I realized that before my morning had even really started, I had killed another living thing.  How horrible is that?

I sat back in the chair and remembered an acting class I took when I first started performing.  We had been asked, “How would you play a murderer?”  –  Everyone went into all the cliche answers of what they thought might motivate a murder. Novice actors thinking way too deeply about it and announcing how they’d have to do so much research because they themselves would just have “no idea” what it would be like (everyone making sure we all knew how “good” a person they were and how inconceivable it would be to have to play such a horrible person).  The conversation always fell way into that category of a mobster or hard core criminal  – cliche of course – but I remembered sitting there thinking:  If you’ve ever killed a mosquito, you can play a killer. The murder? That’s just the action –  knowing who the killer was, their childhood, what they do for a living, all of that is the character. To play any part, of any person, you need to KNOW who the character is, the background.

Of course, that’s exactly where the acting teacher was going.  The class seemed stunned to learn they’d all “killed” at some point in their lives.  In a lot of ways, it’s a horrible thought.  I started feeling bad about my little slithering morning guest who I killed and cleaned up after all before putting my first cup of coffee to my lips.

Morning Cofee

Truth is, I’m sure I’d do it again. I’m not a fan of insects of any kind IN MY HOUSE. I have no problem with them out in the world, I understand their value in the Eco-system of life, but just as I wouldn’t walk around intentionally in a Lion’s den, I expect slithering little insects to stay out of my “den”, no matter how inviting it may be… or suffer the consequences.

Yeah, I’m still half asleep. I need another cup of coffee.

Happy sweet day.

Carmen

Genius: Benedict Cumberbatch

There’s so much “stuff”  going on right now with the death of Eric Garner, the Torture Report, etc. that I just wanted something positive to share. So here goes some happiness I’ve been enjoying lately!  I hope you find some joy in it too!  (transcription below video if you prefer)

(Video Loosely Transcribed)

I admit I’m a newcomer to the Benedict Cumberbatch fan club band wagon.

About a year ago, a friend of mine had told me that I should be watching Sherlock on the BBC and I kinda just put it on my “TO WATCH” list.

About a month ago I was home sick and decided to watch one episode – of course, I binge watched the whole thing.  And I couldn’t figure out where I knew this man from.  I couldn’t figure out why he seemed so familiar.  And eventually I realized he played Kahn in Star Trek.  If someone had just mentioned that fact, being that I’m a little bit of a Sci-Fi geek, I would have totally made the connection and I would have watched Sherlock right away just based on that:  Kahn from Star Trek!!!!  Hello!!!!

In all seriousness, I am shocked by this man.  And I know there are a lot of people who are in love with him because they think he’s so good looking – women and men alike – and I get it.  But what makes him more fascinating to me is his talent.  And I’m not telling anybody anything new.  However, the reason I’m doing a video-post about him is because I never use this word loosely and I have to use it to describe this man.

I think he’s a genius.  Yup, I said it.  A Genius!

I remember watching Michael Jordan in the Chicago Bulls back in the day.  And I remember everyone feeling like we had never seen something like this before.  Being in complete awe of someone’s ability – and not just their ability, but their humility while doing it.  Right?  It’s not just about the talent, but it’s about how they portray themselves when they’re not doing what they’re so naturally gifted at.

Of course, I’m now binge watching all things Benedict Cumberbatch (he’s been in so much by the way, like, 12 Years A Slave, August: Osage County, etc. just go click on his IMDB page and I’m sure you’ve seen him in two or three things you just didn’t know it).  He’s seamless.  I keep watching interviews and listening to him. And it’s not just his talent that fascinates me, it’s his ability to understand his talent and where he is IN IT that makes it so amazing.  And it’s not that he doesn’t care about fame, but he seems more concerned with how fame is going to affect his ability to portray the characters he needs portray.

Simply, I find him amazing.  And if you don’t know who he is, or you haven’t watched anything he’s been in or you think he’s some teen fad, I’m telling you right now check out his current movie:  The Imitation Game.  It’s out right now.  Fascinating. I’ve posted the trailer below.

I think we are in the midst of a genius.  So take the opportunity to enjoy it while you can.  It just doesn’t happen all that often.  Cheers!

Bucket List #19: Done. Check.

Wonder Woman

Wardrobe By Christine Casaus

Anyone who knows me well — knows my fascination with all things Sci-Fi/Fantasy.  I know, it’s funny, odd even — but either way, it’s always been my quirky little cool thing that I’ve kept close to the vest!

And so one of my “dreams” — bucket list items if you will — was always to play a Superhero on film or TV.  Well, I’m telling you, I never thought it would happen, but it did!

This past weekend I got to play Wonder Woman for a project directed by Paul Kowalski.  So cool… so much fun!  And now, I’ve crossed off #19 on my bucket list.  Honestly, who would have ever thought a Latin/Black chic from the ‘hood could ever be Super Woman?  Just goes to show you — you gotta dream. And if you’re gonna dream, might as well dream big!  Woohoo!

Here’s another big item I crossed off my list a while ago….Sky-Diving!

Curious — what’s on your list? 10694400_10152594520129843_6864691125339021088_o

CARMENISMS: Off My Game Update – Distractions

The Gist:

After the week of the horrible “interview”, I got another chance, another shot — and it turned out brilliantly!  Remember that we’re all human.  Sometimes we make mistakes, but it happens, and the trick is figuring out, once you fall, how to get back up!  Also be careful of distractions.  You may think you need to lay in bed for days because you’re depressed, but the truth is, that’s just avoiding the work you need to be doing.  Find your way back into the game!

Good Links: 

Whitney Houston  – I Want To Dance With Somebody 

Cyndi Lauper – Girls Just Want To Have Fun

The Recognition: 

Shot with a Canon PowerShot S110 Digital Camera